Well the time has come for my last blog of the year and to be completely honest, I’m feeling rather sad about having to say goodbye to this.
I write this currently sitting in my dressing gown after submitting another assignment, drinking tea and with my hair pulled up into a messy topknot… I guess you could say I’ve become well accustomed to the student life.
I’ve thought long and hard about what to leave you with after journeying with me this year and it seems appropriate to end the way I started. So here goes… Don’t spend your whole year being confused: Part Two.
While I thought my last year of high school was an emotional rollercoaster, I think it’s fair to say this year has topped that by a long shot. I’ve laughed more, cried more, loved it, hated it, at times wanted to give up, and yet at other times knew this was exactly where I was meant to be.
Confusion is inevitable in your first year of Uni. It is a massive transition with a lot of new things to experience and get your head around. But it’s important not to let your confusion get in the way of you experiencing new things.
This year I’ve learned that sometimes you just have to role with it and go with the flow sometimes. While I’m a person who likes to know what is going on and likes to have structure in my life, I’ve had to learn that if I just role with my confusion, eventually understanding comes. And this has been evident in three areas:
As it was confusing starting NCEA in year 11, it was confusing getting used to the new systems of the University. Suddenly an A became a favoured mark on my paper as it no longer represented just an ‘achieved’ but more like an excellence type grade.
It’s a scary thing receiving your first assignment and not quite knowing how much is expected of you and how to write it. But the lecturers know that being a first year student doesn’t automatically make you a genius. They are there to support you with your assignments and answer your questions.
And if you are completely and utterly confused, even after they have explained it, don’t be afraid to ask for more clarification on the expectations.
As I wrote in one of my previous blogs, living away from home can be very confusing; not just for you, but for everyone around you. But roll with the confusion and make the most of this odd time of having two homes. It’s unique and rather amusing to think about at times.
The internal struggle
Year one of uni is very much a transition year. Suddenly it seems like nothing is the same as what it used to be. And to be honest, that’s rather true. Some weeks are amazing and then the next week you feel incredibly home sick. There are tough weeks, especially in the first semester when you’re still settling in and trying to find your bearings. But it’s about developing endurance through those times and celebrating the successes when they come.
Reflecting back on this year, while it has been incredibly tough, it has been one of the greatest growing years in my life (unfortunately not height wise… but definitely maturity wise). I’ve learned a great deal about myself and realised along the way that I am much stronger than I ever thought I was. I’ve been forced to stand firm in what I believe and be confident in who I am.
The journey of life has crazy twists and turns, but these are the things that mould you and shape you into the person you are.
Well friends, it’s been an incredible journey… one that I would never change a single moment. I hope that through these series of blogs you have been able to get a glimpse into what being a first year student is like. While your experience will be different and unique, go out and live it, being confident in who you are and the decisions you make.
Until next time…